It’s the craziest feeling. Like I feel so alone in a group of people. Is that what you wanted? Hurt the inch of emotions that I do have? Well congrats! If I alleged “attract attention” then why would I attract the negative one especially something about me? I can’t be in school, it’s too much of a whirlwind of emotions. Like I call bullshit, pure and utter bullshit. I give someone my hand and they take my arm. Fuck that. If I was heartless before then get ready, I’m just gonna be a bigger bitch. And in the end was it worth it? Who know but I had to fall face first to realize who I need and what’s essential.

Feelings were hurt, friendships broken, tears, redemption, drunken words, just too much. I had fun in a sense where I was a senior and no responsibilities but people suck. People really suck, shit even myself. Like for example, someone said that this weakened they saw a new side of me. Apparently I’m clingy and tend to purposely provoke things to make it bad. Honestly fuck you. I told that person to do his thing, go out, fuck bitches, and party. I don’t want to have that regret of having a sucky senior week because he’s looking for a reason to stop “seeing” me.like what the fuck? What it sounds like to me is that he’s just looking for a way out. He doesn’t want to be exclusive in that sense, fine. Tell me. I rather be told the truth then be fed a lie. Will I be a offended if he brakes things off? A part of me just because I’m a human with feelings and not a robot but I’m used to people coming in & out of my life so it’ll be okay. Like shit bro, why do people suck? I have like less then ten days of school left, I’m going to school in a month, like screw everyone. At this time right now, it’s time to burn bridges & start wars.